So, my uncle Roy called today to talk to my mom about my Nana. My Nana was cancer and has been going through chemotherapy and I guess she’s not doing too well. I’m scared for her. I’m scared that I’m going to get a phone call while I’m at school saying she’s passed away. I’m scared that I won’t get to say goodbye. I’m scared that the same thing will happen for my mother that happened when my grandfather died: because she lives so far away, she will be the only child not at my grandmother’s side when she passes away. That tears my mother up inside and I hate seeing my mother that way. I’m scared that my grandmother will never see me in a show (she’s seen videos, but never seen a live show), I’m scared my grandmother will never see any of her grandkids get married, I’m scared that my mom’s side of the family won’t be as close anymore. My family loves each other very much, but when my grandfather passed away, we all came together for my grandmother. We are very loyal and will always help each other, but I don’t know what will happen if we don’t have my grandma to focus on in times of grief. I’m just scared, I don’t want my Nana to die, and I don’t want to not get the chance to say goodbye the same way I didn’t get the chance to say goodbye to my Papa.